I've Never Been So Alive

Last night, I got into a car accident. I was driving, below the speed limit, since it was raining cats and dogs out and it was hard to see. It had been raining for about 2 days straight and there were puddles everywhere and the roads were pretty wet. I guess I must have hit a dent or a small pothole under a large puddle that caused my car to kind of shake and hydroplane on the highway.

I was driving on a 4 lane highway on the last lane on the left. My car did about two 360 degree turns as it was skidding and I ended up all the way on the right shoulder of the highway after my car hit the metal railing.  It just so happened that no cars were near me at the time this was going on and since I ended up on the shoulder, I was out of the way from any oncoming cars.

The damage was pretty bad. The entire back bumper came right off, the trunk is smashed in, along with the backlight on the passenger side. Also,  the backside passenger door got dented in and is jammed shut. However, I was able to turn my car right back on. There was one of those help trucks right up the road from where my car stopped and they were able to help me dispose of the bumper, which was totaled. They also stopped oncoming traffic so I could safely get back on the highway. I drove my car all the way home and made it with no problems.

I got away without a single scratch and so did my two passengers. When I finally got home, I replayed the incident in my head over and over so many times. I cant really explain what happened because it all happened in a split second. I realized that this could have ended so much worse than it did. I could have gone over the railing and ended up in a ditch, the car could have flipped over, I could have hit another car, another car could have hit me, the front of the car could have hit the railing and it would have been totaled, one of us riding in the car could have gotten hurt or ended up in the hospital, it could have been a pile up,etc. So many could've, would've, should'ves.

Then I stopped torturing myself and realized I'M ALIVE.

Who the hell cares what could have happened? None of it did. Why stress myself with something that did not occur? I walked away unscathed and so did my passengers. No other cars were involved. Even the railing I hit got no damage. I am so incredibly fortunate to be able to live to tell this story, to joke about it, write about and remember it. I am so damn lucky to have been able to get home and to be able to wake up this morning, in my own bed, with absolutely no pain whatsoever. I am so lucky to simply be alive.

When I realized this I completely broke down. I had to compose myself, put myself back together and simply thank God. It was not my time to go. This situation could have had so many terribly tragic outcomes but it was not my time. I didnt know how much I truly love my life until I realized that it could have been taken away from me in a matter of seconds. I didnt know I could feel so appreciative and thankful for what I have until I faced the possibility of not having it at all.

I've never felt so alive...until I realized that I could have been dead